I have come down with the

BLAH bug. It's bloody awful! I have
the worst additude and am teary and
grumpy and whiny and negative. I'm
trying to shake it off but my usual
methods just aren't working. I was even
going to delete my blog but decided to
wait until my frame of mind changed
just in case. LUCKY YOU,you still get
to listen to me whine,ha!

One thing that may be contributing to my
mood is this odd spot on my breast that I've
developed. It doesn't hurt but is changing
rapidly so I think it's time to go to the doctor.
He's booked solid for a week so I'll have to wait
for a bit before hearing what he has to say.
By then I'm sure I'll have convinced myself that
I have inflammatory breast cancer and have mere
months to live. As it is now,the fact that I know or
know of six women with breast cancer is not helping.
Nor is the knowledge of my previous cancer scare.
I'm trying to think of something postive or funny
to say about this but I'm sorry,there is nothing
really funny or positive about cancer and,I don't
think that's my depression talking either.

My husband's been home for almost a week
though,so that's helped. It's hilarious that
our mental roles have changed,usually he's
the depressed one. Aww well,it had to happen
sometime. If we were both this this things
would be a zillion times worse so I'm thankful
for that.

OK,lets get this party started! I just finished a
fascinating book on sleep: Sleep Thieves by
Stanley Coren. He's a neuropsychologist out
at UBC here in BC. It was excellent and oh so
interesting. Sleep is way more important than
I'd ever imagined! Good book,go read it.

Did you survive April Fools Day? Anybody play
a trick on you? Aren't you happy it's April?
We've had snow daily so it's hard for me to even
believe it's April!